noahshope.com

All I know is they are friends of a friend, and two of their three children were diagnosed with this terribel disease that can't stop waste from getting to their brain. It is so sad, and everytime I visit noahshope.com, I cry my eyes out immensily. I wish I could have some type of fund raiser so I could help find a cure for Battens Disease. I will pray for this family, and all the children who suffer from it. =(

It's black friday and...

Work wasn't as bad I expected. We were behind, but not cause we were busy....cause some people like to talk to much! But, some of us picked up the slack...and we did pretty good.

I'm a little upset, and I can't sleep. Momma, had told me earlier in the day... "You don't have to be immature like them.." But it's not about bein mature, or immature. It's not " Oh I'll teach you." I am not trying to hurt anyone at all, especially not my mother. But I can't stand back and act like nothin ever happened. Act like they've never hurt my mother. So, I am eliminating myself from the situation, because I am very angry and have been for a while, so before I go and say something, and then it's my fault that momma, who I love more than anything, don't get to see her grandkids for another six years, I decided to just not talk to the ones who made me so angry. My momma don't deserve what she's gotten from them, and it's been nothing but pain and heart ache and disrespect. No man, or anyone, in my life will disrespect my momma like that. And Aunt Pat said to me "It's not your sister, it's her husband." Ya know what?! She is a grown woman, and if Daddy were here, he surely wouldn't be treatin momma the way he was. She can stand up to him. She was raised better than that. So I wrote momma a not explainin all this, and then when I got home, there was note askin me to put my clothes in the washer, but it just said thanks mom, at the end, instead of love mom. So I'm sad, cause I don't know what she thinks, but I can't pretend. I have pretended long enough.

Happy Thanksgivin y'all!!!

With a ton of people at my house, Thanksgivin went pretty well. I had ham, and this year we got our rolls from Texas Road House...that cinnamon butter was the absolute best!!!! I decided to pretend to be 21 and have some champagne...(which I keep burping now) But Wilma tried to reveal my secret to my mother.... But it wasn't till way later when momma said what are you drinkin!? And I said champagne...hahaha. I guess you have to know my family, and had to be there....it was funny though. Everyone dwindled out, and me ma talked about how good the kids were, and now nice mandy's family was dresses up, and how some folks are just plain embarassing. And we also noticed miracle whip is a no-no for deviled eggs..... It's not that my family is rude, it's just that when you are use to Aunt Sheila's (My momma) cookin, somethin out of the ordinary strikes conversation....so Aunt Pat's feelins may have gotten hurt over then deviled eggs....but! She knew before she made em that we use mayonnaise. Soo....oh well, they didn't mean to say how awful they were... Then me and momma drove around to four gas stations, and a cvs until finally finding the last newspaper at a star bucks. Then, I smelled like coffee! Lol.

Happy Thanksgivin y'all! Hope yours was as fun, and funny, and thankful as mine!

It's almost...

THANKSGIVING!!!!!

I am getting SOOO EXCITED for CHRISTMAS!!!!

I decided not to be a last minuter this year, and I am ALMOST done with my Christmas shopping!!! Of course I've done all of it online so far, so I am sooooo impatient waiting for it to get here!!!! I got momma some things for the kitchen, two pans, a utensil holder, and an adorable salt and pepper shaker! And then I also previously gave her a three crock pot thingy, and I ordered a very pretty Family Tree thingy that I think she'll love, but the website called it an oversized family tree....i wonder just how big oversized means?! Oh, and this really cute grill thingy....I feel like something is missing...and I just don't what to get her! And then, for my Best Friend! I forgot I had already ordered the gingerbread man shaped muffin pan, and today I finally found the perfect gift!!! A gun rack! YAY! And I gotta go to Target to get a rectangle shape spring form pan. And then for Gramp there is a cowboy boot wine bottle holder, it's adorable. I have to wait till next pay check though. Haha. And then who ever's name I draw on Thanksgiving...hmm...I wonder whose it'll be. And what I will get them....any lady will be easy-ish, cause I kinda know all there styles, but the guys....last year I got Bobby, and I got him a cool grill set thingy, but then I felt dorky. Haha, Hmmm....I hope I get Uncle Bob's or Joeys, cause then I'll have fun shopping!!!! Oh I can't wait for my stuff to get here!!! I'm sooooo excited!!!

One Hundred Fifteen

DAYS!!!

One Hundred Sixteen

Days till I'm 21!!!!

I am gunna parrrrrtttyyyy!!!!!

Probably not really, but I can pretend!

Soo...today at work...

I decided to go back in the grill and try to learn it. I successfully made two big macs all by myself! And a few other things. And I asked Josh if I excel (I'm not sure if that's the right word) but if I excel in grill if he could schedule me back there like, permanently. And he said, that he couldn't waste my smile back in grill, and he needs me on counter, but maybe sometimes I could be back there. =) I thought that was sweet. Even from Josh. Haha.

But, I am proud of my big macs!

One Hundred Seventeen

DAYS TILL MY TWENTY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm good to go...

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make, the better. - Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Happiness is having a large, loving, caring, close-knot family in a different city. - George Burns

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence.- George Washington.

The purpose of life is to fight maturity. - Dick Werthimer.

Life is pleasant, Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome. - Isaac Asimov.

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command. - Alan Watts.

If you know someone who is trying to drown their sorrows, you might tell him sorrows know how to swim. -

Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drink I feel ashamed. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams. If I didn't drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I say to myself, it is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver. ~Jack Handey

I'm not plannin on leavin yet, but the truth is, you just never know, and if this is as good as it gets, man I think I'm good to go. ~Jason Aldean

Florida Law

States 16-24. You were 21, she was sixteen. You should be okay.

Just get a restraining order, and carry a tazer. Since you refuse to carry a gun. HAHA. But really, get the restraining order.

PUPPIES!!!!!

We think we have a pregnant great dane on our hands! Kathleens dog Sunkiss has all the pregnant dog symptoms! The Dr. Said it was too early to tell, and the test is too expensive!

I am very nervous for Sunkiss, Danes apparently have difficult births, and she is kind of young, but I am ready to tell work that someone is having a baby to rush to help deliver the puppies!

I am nervous for Kathleen too, if something happens to Sunny she will be heart broken! And what do you do with a litter of GIANT puppies?!

Now, this better not be a false pregnancy! Because I am very excited!!!!!!!!!!

If you'd like a Great Dane puppy, let me know! =)

This is the Daddy.

He has one blue eye!

Well, I can't find a picture of the mommy. But she is pretty too! I know somebody wants a puppy!!!!

The Path to Heaven...

Is sideways and fast.

I think anyone can take anything and feel it means something different, than it was intended, but I think it's true.... The path to Heaven is sideways, and it's deffinately fast.

Twenty Seven...

The Yankees Just beat the Philly's 7-3! Making them the World Series Champions for the twenty seventh time!!! And the first time since 2000! I'm so proud of them! And I know Daddy is darn proud too!!!! I was gettin nervous there, and then suddenly, Jeters hands went up and WOOOOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I am probably the only Floridian who roots for the Yankees, but I gotta stay true to my Daddy's team! =)

Ugh

What should I do with my life?! I WILL not be stuck at McDonalds forever. But right about now, I'm begining to feel like I won't be going much further. =( Photography will be a waste of money and it won't get me anywhere. I don't want to be in school for a long time, I don't have the time or money for it. UGH, this is soo stressfulll!!!

So tonight we had dinner, Aunt Kitty and Uncle Bob came over and momma made a roast. Dinner went well, lots of laughing and talking. I promised momma I won't cry when she gets glasses, like I did when Daddy said he was gunna get glasses.

Then Joey, Ariana, and Courtney came over for dessert, Momma made pineapple upsidedown cake, and I made these punkin shaped cheesecakes.

I was so proud of them!

Momma said "Here hand me that tray, and you carry the cake." So no sooner than it was in her hand, I bumped into it and they went all over the floor!!!!

I started cryng immediately and Momma says "oh don't start crying!" And then I started laughing hysterically! A mix of laughing and crying makes it hard to clean up a mess! Thank you Ariana! For picking them up!

I was sad, but Uncle Bob and Joey are great at making fun of anyone for anything, so they kept making jokes the rest of the night, and Joey said in his imagination they were delicious!

HAHA.

But other than the falling punkins, dinner was a great success!

Adding picss out of boredom and memories...

Kathleens Birthday

Florida Ear Muffs!

The nine millemeter.

Ray, Clayton, Kathleen, and Kathlns Momma.

Clayton and Kathln Shootin.

Sh's a pro! Haha.

A bad picture, but a great memory!

I made the one under the three at the bottom left!

(Of course that's where I was aiming!)

Soo....I don't quite have the blog thing figured out yet, but from reading others I think I'm doing it all wrong. But then again, is there a right or a wrong way?!

Well, today is Daddy's Birthday. He would be SIXTY today, and we are having dinner as a family in his honor. But there is going to be a BIG empty spot at the dinner. =( I hope he watching over us all, I know he's taking car of us best he can. I wish I was going fishin today. I miss fishin with him so much.

"He flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels, by the clouds and stars and past where no one see's. And He walks with Jesus and his loved ones waiting, and I know he's smilin sayin don't worry bout me."

Now I'm just bored and I feel like writing.... Tomorrow is my Daddy's Birthday. He would have been SIXTY! I miss him more than words can express and the pain I feel everyday by not having him here also can't be put into words. But I know he would want me to be happy, and happiness is hard to come by these days, so I am trying so hard to be happy. For him, and for me.

This is me and my Daddy when I was younger, it's fuzzy from the scanner though.

Umm....I don't wanna get sad so I'm changing the subject.... I love that I work, but I have to admit I am pretty excited to have this Saturday off!!!! I haven't done much with my bestest friend in a long time!!!! I'm thinkin we ought to go four wheelin!!!

Some of our crazy Wal-Mart adventures!

Yes....She is in a trash can...

And, those feet belong to an employee!

The beach on a freezing night!

This is my favorite picture of us!!!! Thos was our Prom after party, while everyone else got drunk, we got muddy! =)

Hmmm.... what else can I talk about??? Umm....OH!

This is my baby Lily Jo, only two people come before her in my life.

Like a child, she is my top priority!

You can't deny that she is the prettiest lady bug you've ever seen!!!!

And there is Daisy Duke. The two of them are like two peas in a pod.

Always catching Lizards.

Yesterday was Halloweeeeennn!!!!! I of course had to work while my friends had fun, but! It was pretty fun! I get along okay with most of the people at work and we had fun, I dressed up as a Dr. or I guess I was a nurse with Scooby Doo scrubs and purple hair! Nancy was a Pirate, Pablo was Hamburgalar!!!! HAHA. Baby Ali and Big Allie were the only ones who came to see me, and that made my night!!!! They both looked adorable in their costumes, and baby Ali deffinately knows who I am because she was talking to me a lot! I love her. I'm gunna try to put pictures on here....but I'm not sure how!

By the end of the night we wanted to LEAVE so nobody would pose for a group picture. =(
But this is Nancy, Pablo and Victoria.

This is Nancy, Victoria and Justin, He was a fire fighter and he yelled into my stethescope!

One of the rare times we actually have good team work!!!!

October 30th, 2009

Soo... I reallly am not sure what to do here, I guess I should start with today....but I'm actually gunna start with yesterday... Which was October 30th, on the aaccount I haven't yet gone to sleep from today. Momma brought the price of the house down....way down. And like I am not sure if I'm happy or sad. I have lived in this house for twenty years of my twenty year long life. So moving is scary for me. And I don't want to go where we can afford. A trailer park for fifty five and over people, not that it's a trailer park, but that they are old people. But what can I say, I have to take what life throws at me, and I'll have to learn to love old people. Haha. I'm afraid Lily won't be welcome, she is very talkative. But the upside is momma will feel safer at night so I can go out with my friends more often, and I won't have to worry about her while I'm at work. And, we won't have to watch nine kids just to get by. We'll watch a few kids because we want to. So hopefully the house sells, but I want one last Christmas here. =(